I just finished my board re-certification exam for internal medicine two weeks ago. 10 hours of testing in a little room at a testing center where you are photographed, palm printed, monitored, recorded and have to raise your hand to take a break between sections and then repeat the verification process after and before each of the hour sections that take approximately 2 hours each.
After which, I feel very proud. I feel accomplished. I feel relaxed. I feel… kind of crazy.
Why the heck did I just study for SIX MONTHS on an almost daily basis for a test I DIDN’T HAVE TO TAKE???
It didn’t occur to me that this was an optional endeavor until my medical assistant texted me jokingly that she “hoped I passed because she didn’t want to look for a new job”… It was then that I recognized that I did not have to take this test. Which made me think – why did I do it?
Rationally, I wanted to keep both of my certifications, I worked for YEARS to achieve my dream of becoming a doctor. I loved my sleepless nights saving lives and learning the depths of internal medicine inside and out. I am absolutely honored to help care for patients now and be part of their lives in my specialty. I love forming long-term relationships with my patients. I love “nerding out” on new science, new articles, new treatment options. I love being able to help other people.
I love it so much, I’m forging a second career because I’m so passionate about everyone getting the opportunity to feel like I do every day.
It makes me sad to think that there are people who are unhappy in their jobs, unhappy in their bodies, unhappy in their lives. I understand that that is their choice.
I also understand that most of us weren’t raised with the coping skills and the advanced thinking skills to change our lives on command. I feel like this is a gift I’ve been given and I want to keep paying it forward.
I choose every day to continue forward in this amazing life that I’ve created (even though I bumbled along… and made some choices for not-the-best-reasons in the past). And that I have the amazing time and opportunity to continue to live and create each day that I wake up on this earth.
Thank you for being part of my journey. Thank YOU for reading. Thank YOU for being who you are on this planet!!
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